g Men Are Jerks: February 2007
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Malaysian boy stuck in Shanghai.

Monday, February 26, 2007

Nobody knows where they might end up

Nobody knows...

posted by Duff! at 8:21 pm | 5 Heartache(s)

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Down down down

After a long CNY break... guess no one really wants to go back to work... certainly not me. In fact, I don't even want to be in Shanghai. Or anywhere. I am sick and tired of everything in life. Everything. What does world go on the way it does? Does it even serve any purpose?

I have a job that pays me well. Fat bonus. But i am not happy. I hate my job. I hate my boss. I hate my subordinates. I hate my clients. I hate the way things are. I hate the fact that my Chinese is not as good as the local Chinese and my English isn't perfect. I hate to be criticised all the time. I hate having to try so hard all the time. I hate having to work late all the time. I hate having to work through weekends. I hate people who will scream at me for one missing comma. I hate unreasonable deadlines.

So what if some guys want to bed me. They don't even know me. They probably don't even want to know me. I hate my body. I am short and I am fat. I can never lose the fats around my waist and I will never have 6 packs. I hate my nose. I hate my cravings for fried food. I hate being emotional all the time. I hate the fact that I am waiting for Mr. Perfect to sweep me off my feet. I hate when I wanted someone so badly and I was just being played. I hate mind games. I think I really wanted some attention from O. But he is just not that into me. Do I really like him that much? I don't even know. And then I go around seeking attention. I hate to be needy all the time. I hate to need constant attention and affirmation.

I hate having to talk about myself all the time. I hate to be emotional all the time. I hate to be crazy all the time. I hate to have to hide my craziness from people all the time.

I hate not being loved.

I hate being alone.

I am not even happy...

posted by Duff! at 8:52 pm | 6 Heartache(s)

Thursday, February 15, 2007

World of My Own



create your own visited countries map
or vertaling Duits Nederlands

posted by Duff! at 11:04 am | 1 Heartache(s)